Today I am having fun with that little devil called "Procrastination". Some days I feel like I just can't get into things and that its a bit of an uphill battle to get moving - the world is made of sludge...and moving in it is just more difficult than other days. So - I pulled myself together and sat down to do some balances - and I was the first priority... priority - Release of Toxic Structures. The up end of it all is that I was talking myself down today - not up. I was feeling sludgy - so the world was sludgy - and instead of helping myself by stopping and connecting - I talked myself down. In the balance - I needed to express my emotions - and so I stood by my window and just started to talk it through... I feel flat, I feel irritated, I feel impatient... I feel frustrated.. I feel annoyed.. I feel etc... and at the bottom was me talking me down... saying some rather unpleasant things to myself... and this - was not really the adult me talking at all - this was a teenage me. In digging deeper I find that is not even my voice - its a voice from my past that I have embodied. If I am talking to myself like this at a deeper level - then of course the world is going to feel like sludge and feel difficult. There is no way I can feel like someone who can be highly functioning with that going on inside. The teenager just gets into -why bother? Its too hard? You're not going to succeed anyway etc.... and with that comes the good old sabotage patterns of procrastination - finding distractions and putting things off and then of course feeling worse because you have not done what you set out to do - and then you are in the hamster wheel of beating yourself up. That is not a wining story. So then I needed to connect to a higher being... I have a huge being of light I connect to - I just felt the energy of this being infuse me and hold me.... making me lighten up!! In this space I start to talk to myself differently - I talk myself back up. I am , at my heart - a good person - good things happen to good people. I have what it takes to create the life I want to live. I love my work and people seem to love it too and seem to benefit - well they tell me that - so it must be true - because they keep coming back for more - that can't be happening just because they want to be nice!! I have a wonderful family and they love me too. Life is actually very good and the sun is shining - and its beautiful, and there are wonderful birds that come to my window every day - and sing just outside my window - what an amazing place to live and work from. My health is improving. My work is improving all the time. I get paid to do what I love in an environment that I love, working with people I love. I am supported by Diving Beings of Brilliant light... I am not alone. I tap into this support and feel so much love and so much support... its ok... I would never be given anything I cannot handle - so the help is there - I just have to let it in. Next question I need to ask myself - "Lesson to learn and new choices to make"... ahhh yes.... I am not alone so I don't have to do anything on my own - there is an entire Universe of Divine beings there to help me each step of the way. If I talk myself down - everything feels down and then appears to be doing down. If I talk myself up then things go up and life goes up too. So - I now choose to accept the Divine help and support that is there for me, and that will show up in any number of ways that are perfect for me. I now Choose to talk myself up and to be more loving and compassionate to myself...after all - the one who feels down is younger me....and she deserves my love, understanding and compassion. So - where are you involved in similar patterns of self talk? It is helping you or hindering you? What can you do to change how to talk to yourself? What can you tap into to feel better about yourself and your life? Next time you see dear old Procrastination - stop and take some time to listen inwards - what is the inner conversation? Help the one inside to come back upwards...don't step on them...help them. Much love Arleen
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Today I had a balance with my dear friend Dimitri, who just does Life Alignment for his own growth and pleasure... but he is a very gifted practitioner. We have regular swap balances... as I do with a few other practitioners like Reni Armbruster. These dear people help me keep on track - and I highly recommend that you find a group of people that you can receive swap sessions with - especially if you are a practitioner of sorts yourself... its so good to receive as well as give. My balance today found old anger and resentment and a good dose of fear still stuck in there... this was old stuff - stuff I have been working with for some time.. but there was this resistant sticky layer that was still sitting in there. I knew it was there - I saw it on my morning walk as my head went wafting off into an old story that was pretty negative - and I caught it and found myself thinking - "wow - I am still telling myself this story?...That means I am still holding onto it and therefor will find it perpetuating in my life... do I really want to keep on playing a stuck old records that has an outcome I don't even like???" So we went deeper into it - finding the location in the body where it was sitting and then shifting the final layers into the light... this does not mean that the old pain body is happy to let it go. No - our ego loves our old negative fear based stories... they are designed to keep us into the "devil we know" vs "devil we don't know" so - called safety patterns... safe for our ego - as it loves this gooey stuff... but not good for soul development, happiness and progress. This is where consciousness comes in - connecting to the highest aspect of ourselves that can lovingly take the other side into hand and guide us into better choices - gently - and sometimes - not too gently - talking to us... "Arleen - listen to yourself...you're telling the old story again - you know that what you focus on becomes a vibration that brings more of this to you... is this what you want to attract? Is this the lower vibration you want to sit in right now?? No..it is not. So - what can you focus on instead? What story can you rather tell yourself? What can you look at to shift gear right now???" So I stop and take a breath and reconnect - coming back into the present moment - and then reassure my smaller self, and start to focus on all the good things in my life - and all the positive aspects - and soon - I am feeling pretty good...and then - I become inspired and energised again. Yes - this takes a bit of work - it takes a bit of effort - but my day is so much better for it.. and the results show... things do get better...my health improves... my energy levels improve - and I get happy!!!! So its time to let go of these old stories - and yes - it will be a work in progress.. we have invested a lot in these old stories - well - our ego has.... and is somewhat addicted to them. So practice things that make you feel better... find the stories that are uplifting... let yourself day dream into good stories instead of having nightmares in your daily mind. See how this changes your day and your daily performance. Its worth the effort.... you - are worth the effort. Much love Arleen All work and no play makes for a dull day. If we are working from a "work hard" program - we drive , drive , drive and don't stop to play and relax. Thankfully this is a lesson I have been learning along the way - but - to do it without guilt... that can be another thing. Mostly - I get it right now - and can take breaks and rests without guilt and without that old voice that nags about working hard... if you don't work hard you don't get anywhere in life - etc etc.. There is a better phrase to learn - work smarter - not harder. This refers to working with the right attitude...working with a plan...working with the right mind set. Also - working from a place of passion... of heart... which then results in not working so much as in being and flowing... and playing. So it all about balance really... if you work hard and are in a grumpy space - you will never produce the right kinds of results - and will take longer over it all...and - what you produce will have a lower energy - and be of a lesson quality. If you are tired - take a break. Just stop - take a walk...stop for a while and just breathe... reconnect to the beauty in life. Day dream for a little while... for me - I connect to my cosmic energy place... the flow of life. Here I just rest a while... I let the problems go into something bigger than me - some place where the solutions already are - and I just let go for a while. No - I don't have it perfect yet - I am a constant work in progress... but... the more I do remember to do this - the more things start to work out. You cannot think with a super stressed mind... you go into fight and flight mode then and its just about survival... and that is not a thinking place... its a super stressed panicked place. So deal with what most urgently needs dealing with and then just stop... breathe... have a glass of water - take a walk if you can.. stop and smell the flowers...watch an ant.... look at the birds - the sky... lift your head up towards the sun...and feel it shining on your face - imagine it filling you up with energy. Hand the problem over to something bigger than you... your soul... your guides... your God - whatever works for you... and just let go for a while...cry of you need to - stamp if you need to - get the emotions out of the way by expressing them in a safe way... let go..... Sometimes I just lie on the earth and feel the support of being held....and I remind myself - its ok. Let go...let God - wonderful saying - that actually works. Then... in time...solutions start to find their way to you... things calm down... amazing things can happen then. The creative part of your being will come up with the solutions - and it could even be that the solutions find you - because you stopped long enough for them to catch up with you. So take time daily to just stop... smell the roses... feel the sun....let go....breathe - reconnect. Much love Arleen Hello there. I am a day late writing this blog post.... I was relaxing after a great massage yesterday, and just needed to rest. Yesterday I did a balance on my vision board for the word - receiving... which developed into the phrase "I am open to receiving my good". I was testing weak on this statement. This means no amount of positive affirmations etc would work fully, as I would be somehow blocking the flow or sabotaging the ability to receive, or say yes to the wrong offers, that were not for my highest good. In the process of the balance I was able to see that I did not fully trust that those giving were doing so without an ad-gender, and so I would find myself in doubt, hesitant, not fully trusting, and then overcompensating to make sure that I gave back to them in full plus interest, in whatever ways I could. This all links back to those previous balances with the hidden guilt I was carrying and also to the linked issue of deservabilty. It was never enough for me to just say thank you - I had always felt I had to then somehow make it up to whoever it came through, in all the ways I could imagine...for fear of punishment and anger. So receiving became an form of dis-empowerment for me, not empowerment. I will do it and I will do it myself - became safer. This backfired a lot in my past. I have been working on this for some time now - so in many ways it has really changed - and lately the offers coming through have been very pure and of serving the highest good for all involved... but still - I found myself overcompensating. So this time I went even deeper and worked with what I found there - to melt away the old programming and fears... and really open to receiving "all that is mine by Divine Right". We each have a flow that is ours to receive by "Divine Right"... and to receive this we need to be in the flow of energy - to be in the flow of BEING an expression of our true selves. So here I came across my next belief.... that "I have to work hard. It can't come to me easy." I know many people have this program running amok in their heads. So this was all linking to a previous balance that Reni Armbruster (the amazing Life Alignment practitioner and teacher in Switzerland - a great inspiration in my life and beautiful friend), and I worked on just a week ago - about going into the flow of life - into the flow of the energy of the universe... and there is no effort there- there is huge loving support there.. and its easy to be there. In that balance we tapped into this amazing energy and just allowed it to flow through us... and that is most likely what led to this blogging journey I am on. Part of the homework from that - was to tap into this energy ten times a day - which I have been doing. It is amazing what has happened in such a short time since doing this as a regular practice - and its this energy I am tapping into in my longer morning meditations. So - since letting go of the hard work - and tapping into the flow... and then letting go of old guilt and pain etc., that is not mine to carry - and now - opening to receive from good sources for the highest good of all... I have been receiving. People who have long owed me money have started to pay, others are paying me in advance, others are booking into courses and booking sessions, I have booked into some shows to promote my work, I have this website and blog up and running - and an offer to make it all a lot more professional when the time comes, an incredible astrological session, and then my beautiful hubby has offered me regular massages (and he is amazing), and then breakfast in bed this morning... and the list goes on. So its time to look into these old belief systems around deservabilty and receiving. What are yours? How are they serving you? What can you do to change them? What new stories can you tell yourself about yourself in these areas of life instead? Much love Arleen Today I have been very aware of making conscious choices to support myself and my body for my highest good. This morning it was raining, and raining hard ...and it was cold. This meant that my usual morning walk, which is my exercise, was not an option. It may well have been an option for some really brave people out there- but for me - who seriously dislikes being cold and wet - its just not an option. So - I could have just not exercises - as I have in the past... or - I could make another choice for exercise. Its interesting - being on this path I have taken and being my own daily client - I can already feel the shift - as today I felt the need to exercise! This is new... this is unusual. I either swim or walk, or do both in summer... but... this desire and need to exercise when my favourite options are not available... this is new! So - a choice to exercise - to find a solution... I chose to pull out the yoga mat and do some yoga. I did not let the fact that I could not remember the moves stop me - after all - that would be an excuse -as this is 2016 and we have internet... and it was working today!! So - I downloaded the very useful images of "Salute to the Sun" , popped on some lovely music, and got started...with the curtains closed! I did yoga a long time ago and right now - it would be very amusing to watch me attempting to do these moves- as simple as they are. However - a start is a start and I actually felt really good afterwards... even remembered a few other poses after a while, so popped them in. This has made my daughter somewhat inspired to do yoga with me on the weekends... ummm... she is a ballet dancer and does yoga at school... so this will be fun... I will grunt into a semi-position while she wraps her leg somewhere near her ear... oh well - what is life without some humour?? The point here is that it does not matter so much what you do or how great you are at doing it - just made the decision to do it and start...and you will get there eventually - and in making the start - you feel pretty good!!!! Another area I have found myself making conscious choices in in diet. Now on the whole I have a pretty good diet anyway - low sugar and low junk food and mostly organic. However... sometimes I have been eating for comfort and eating out of habit, or taking a quick easy option even thought its not really what my body needs. Today I found myself being a lot more aware of eating for nourishment. What does my body really need vs what does my ego want? I found myself not needing to eat breakfast at all. I just wanted tea, and followed this later with a juice (freshly made). Then later went into lunch - but again - not the fastest option - but just stopped for a moment and asked my body - what do you really need? It did not take long to make - but it was a much better option with much better energy results. How often are we charging around and just grabbing something to fill a gap and not actually being conscious about what it is we are doing? I never did that much with my children when they were growing up... I always made sure I had healthy snack options for them so that if we were in a hurry - a solution was there...so why not give myself the same level of care? Think about it... if the external world is a reflection of my internal world... if I do not take the time to care for me - what am I going to attract as a reflection in my external world? A world that seems as if it does not have time to care for me and will put me last , or lower in the order of priorities!!! So again - it comes to conscious choices here. What do I want to attract in my life and in my world experiences? I want to feel loved, cared for, nurtured, provided for, secure, safe, happy etc.... This means that in order to attract those things as world external experiences... I have to make sure I do these things for myself. So I need to love myself... treating myself the way I do for those that I love and care for... this means making sure I get play time, enough sleep, am warm and comfortable, am eating healthy food which is good for me (yes with the treats as well - but predominantly healthy).... and so the list goes on. I have to become as good a caregiver towards myself, as I am for my children and other beloveds. Much love Arleen I was very privileged to receive an Astrological Alignment from the very gifted Jeanette Jones (www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100008275803075). Wow... this is going to take a few months to fully integrate. I really got to connect more deeply to all that I am. I met more of these amazing beings that are walking by our side - day by day and moment by moment. They are so fulled with love for us and really want to just help us... but - we have to let them. This is the reality about help. There often is a lot more help out there than we would like to think... part of us can be so stuck in our story of having to do it all by ourselves (note - there should be music here..singing..All by myself.....). What useless old programing that is!!!Time to toss that one. Ask yourself for a moment here - when last did you openly and willing allow help to come to you? How often are we wanting help from a specific person in a specific way - instead we could be opening up - asking for the help and allowing it to come in any of the many hundreds of ways the universe is sending it to us. We ask - it gets sent - but its not in a format our ego wanted - so we ignore it and complain about it...and ask again - so it gets sent again - in another form - and so on and so on and so on...... Yes - we do have to be discerning - not all help offered is ideal for us in our setting. Just yesterday I was approached by the most wonderful couple talking about a business idea - which is a great one... however - not on my path. So - if any of you are looking for a great business idea - let me know and I will put you in touch with them - they are very special and will help you all they can. Another thing I was made more aware of through today's session - is the stuff I carry that is not necessarily mine. I was carrying guilt... not mine... genetic...inherited... but with this in my vibration would attract situations where I felt I was somehow to blame no matter what was going on... had to be my fault some how.... and then of course would attract situations where I would get blamed for things and suspected... again - without real cause - but... it you carry a vibration of guilt - even if its not yours - then its very easy to be suspected of things you have not done. With this also comes the feeling that you do not deserve to succeed or be rewards - you must be punished... so that becomes the attraction and the sabotage. Along similar lines is carrying the pain of generations - the pain of woman, or the pain of men. Some of this pain was my own yes - but much of it was not.... So - what to do with it? I let it move through me and let it pass... the guilt surfaced - I faced it and called on help - realised its not mine and let it move.... the pain came up...intense too... some of it was mine - I owned it and l expressed it and then let it move through, and the parts that were from eons back - owned it - acknowledge it for what it as - expressed it and let it move through me. It is not that easy to do as it does hurt...but - take comfort in the fact - that once out - you feel so much better - so much lighter and with so much more energy...and also - much clearer... and in letting go of this old stuff - you are free to attract a new way of being, and new experiences. The guilt one I have been working on for a few years now - it came up first in a balance with Jeff Levin in Module 6 Life Alignment training. That freed me so much already... today I took a deeper step with it. What I noticed after the balance with Jeff was that guilt would come up - and I could see it - it sometimes still had a grip on me - but I knew what it was. Also - when others tried to blame me for things that were not mine - I could see it.... and I could find ways to gently express that - and sometimes in firmer ways when needed...I am sorry - but this is not my stuff and I am not to blame. So how much stuff are we all carrying and letting filter our experience of the world - that is not even ours? Today - think about all the things you take on that are not yours to take on or carry. For each thing that you identify - put an item in your pockets and walk around with it..and make it heavier if its very heavy to carry. Get a bag or backpack if needed...physically do this. How is this helping you to carry all this stuff around with you? How does it impact you...energetically, emotionally etc?? What do you want to do about it? Do you really need to carry it? If not - time to toss it. We are all so much bigger and so much more powerful than we can imagine... and we have so much help there for us as we go along... tap into the help and the love that is there for you!!! Much love Arleen Note - this is the Facebook link for those who want a working place to work through some of the exercises.. www.facebook.com/groups/547367528782336/ In loving memory of my Dad - Wilfred Nipper - who would have been 75 today. These days he is one of our beloved guardian Angles - always taking care of us and leaving us gifts of white feathers. Love you Dad - thanks for all the good times. Well... what have I unleashed? Yesterday was a huge day - wrote a webpage and a blog all in one day. Today I have added the Facebook group closed page - for those who wish to take part in this and have a place that is more private to do so. You will find it here - www.facebook.com/groups/547367528782336/ - if you are interested in taking parts of this journey yourself. I will set up daily challenges or exercises there that are based on what I do daily myself. This is in response to a request for this yesterday.. thank you for the challenge!! This morning I managed to do my longer meditation first thing in the morning - I think I will try this daily as it is a good time to do it. Set my alarm for 15 minutes and was surprised when it went off - so that was actually a lot easier than I thought. It does give me a sense of presence to start my day with. I then took a long walk - easy enough to do as my daughter takes the bus into town for her ballet school - so I walk with her to the bus stop and then keep on walking. Most days beloved hubby also joins in - he stops part way to do the gym (yes - we are very blessed and have an open air one in the park) - and I walk... gym and I do not get on all that well. In summer - I swim... I love to swim - so for exercise - I think I am doing quite well, as I have been doing this for most of the year, at least 5 times a week. I do find it helps me see what rubbish is going on in my head... some days there is just utter garbage spewing forth and I find myself looking at it and thinking - really??? Is this what you want to create in your life? Then I consciously make an effort to focus on something more pleasant - on all the thing that are beautiful or going right in my life... I just start to tell myself another story. I am not saying this is easy to do. I have been practicing this for years and there is still garbage in my head! But - with practice I have become a lot better at stopping it in its tracks and not letting it get carried away, and then turning it around into a more positive outlook. I also make a point of really looking at where I am in my walk - at appreciation for where I live, for the flowers, the birds, and breathing in the essence of nature... this is really energizing and helps a lot. Its a good way to start the day. So today - after a good start...I had an upset. Something happened and I got really upset about it. I fell into an old wound and it was nasty in there. We all carry these old things with us - until we find them and can transform them or let them go. So what to do when we fall into an old nasty or have a huge upset??? I created a safe space - I waited until there was no one around so I could go into my mess. Its not going anywhere until we do something about it. Now- who did what and why and when... those are details and t triggers... and not as important really as dealing with that messy pain - because until its dealt with - it will fester and infect our thinking and ability to create a better life. So - step one - create a safe space to work in.... now I like comfort... so warm room and soft pillow... I also have Life Alignment tools - so I set up cards on a chart or a circle or pattern to hold me and support me while I drop in. Step two - If you have some good friends - send them a message to send you loving support... it helps... they don't have to fix you or know all the details - although a good chat with one of them can really help if needed... they just need to send the support. If you don't have this option available... call in your guardian Angels, Guides, God - whatever Spiritual help you can call on - ancestors or pets... whatever works for you... We are never alone!!!!!!! Step three - access your area of pain and drop into it - just acknowledge - this is it and this is how I am feeling... for me - its was deep tears... I did not try and think it through - emotions are feelings - you have to feel those suckers... you can't think them away. So I howled for a while, made a lot of snotty mess and noise for a while (pillows help if you worry about sound)... and I just let it all come out - no thinking - no figuring it out - just letting it all go. I got up - had a cup of tea - got on with my day - and then later had a round two to do - no worries - same process - let the rest out.... and you may have a round 3 too - who is counting?? It does not matter - if it shows up - find a time for it and let it out when its ok to do so. After that - the emotions are out of the way and the head can come back online. The head with emotions in the way - swimming all over - is working through the filters of old stories and can't see clearly. I am always delighted with the clarity that comes to me after this - and the huge sense of relief and peace. My breathing changes and I am so present... I... as in my Higher Self or Soul... label it what you want - but that larger me is there. This me can then take right action. I later did my daily balance... this is part of taking me on a client... and this was all about connecting to the future me... the one who has already done the things I am setting out to do. So visualise a you who has already arrived where you want to go... what does this you feel like? Looks like? Get a real sense of this you. Adrian - my husband - has a great name for this - he calls it your Future Potential Self. This me has done it - this me knows what to do and how she did it. So this gives me the feeling I am aiming for, and this feeling can then become my guidance system for future actions. The more I visit this energy... the more I know how I need to feel. So when faced with a decision or action - I sense into it and feel it ... does it match this future me? Does it lead to this future me? If yes - then I follow through... if no - then I don't. Then I know I need to do something differently, and I track what that is and apply it. (OK sometimes... my dear ego gets in the way and draws this process out a bit... got to love this side of me too...looks a bit like a snively old shrew). So this needs to become my focus. With the idea of focus - is also to focus on all the things that are right in my life, and are working out....all I have to be grateful for... more focus in this direction will bring more of this to me. What I focus on I create... it becomes like a magnetic force and draws more of this to me. So tonight before going to bed - I will relax in a bath and just acknowledge all the good that is already in my life, and feel the gratitude for this... Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!!! Much love Arleen I am doing well in life really -when you put it all into perspective ( I am not homeless, jobless, chronically ill or starving - thankfully!!!) ...however.... the big however.....
I could be fitter. I could be more healthy. My finances are coming in - but expenses have gone up and the demand is higher - and it would be very nice to be earning a bit more and getting clear of accumulated debt. My husband is a wonderful man - but we have both been working hard and not connecting as much as we could/should... you know how it is?? You get tired and just don't put that extra effort in that is required to make it seriously amazing. My family are great... but again... I am just feeling worn out and like a tired old frump. But I know I am not - but yet - I actually feel that way. I am ticking along... chug chug chug... like a worn out stream train going up hill and in need of a tune up and service. I know many others feel this way - so what are we going to do about it? We have have times like this - life is good - its ok - its chugging along...but the spark is sort on in need of a re-ignition. So this is what this blog is all about... getting my fire back... and in the process - any of you out there who are wanting to shift out of chug- a -long into revved up and flying... well - hopefully you can learn from my journey and rev up and fire too. So... I am taking myself on as a serious client. I don't normally work with clients daily... but... its time I made myself important and a priority ... so daily it will be - for at least the first month (cop out option after one month.. inserted here... as I can be a hard task master!!!) My intention is to seriously shift my health. I feel sluggish. I am overweight ..by about 12 kgs... so I intend to change that. I am not going to drop 12kgs in a month... this is about following a path that is right for my whole being... not going nuts... so just to drop it bit by bit in a healthy way. I also wish to lighten up a bit. I have taken on so much responsibility over the years that I have become a bit more serious, have resigned to just getting things done and putting all others and their needs and family needs first... I need to laugh more and have more fun. My battery needs recharging. I wish to become more romantic and have more romance in my life (after all - I am married to a hunk of a man) - feeling a tad jaded by life and responsibility. I intend to increase my business... to a minimum of $2000 a week. For some that may seem a lot - for others a small amount - but - it will help myself and my family to get by comfortably, and to be able to reduce debt too. I would love to receive a lot more than that.... however - having a goal is a good starting point... and opening up to allowing that income to come in more ways than just work is also an option here... so lets make the statement that I am now open to receiving $2000 a week income... from great sources. Spiritually - I can be a tad lazy... so I do need to do daily meditation... I tend to do small snatches of it... ok - lets test... so I need to aim for one ten minute meditation... and then the little snatches during the day too. My image,and self image is a bit blah at the moment too - so I do need to shift that and bring in more colour and flow... things that really do reflect who I am... and for me that is colour and comfort. I have been going practical and cheap. This needs to change... it does not need to be expensive - but it does need to reflect me and honour me. There is more I am sure - and that will be revealed as I go along. I am going to use my tools of Life Alignment - and other tools I have gathers - along the way. I will publish as much as I can (without compromising privacy of my inner self and others). I will share with you the tips and tools I am going to use along the way. Its August 1st... a pre-spring clean out. Welcome to this journey of change. Much love Arleen |
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