In loving memory of my Dad - Wilfred Nipper - who would have been 75 today.
These days he is one of our beloved guardian Angles - always taking care of us and leaving us gifts of white feathers. Love you Dad - thanks for all the good times.
Well... what have I unleashed?
Yesterday was a huge day - wrote a webpage and a blog all in one day.
Today I have added the Facebook group closed page - for those who wish to take part in this and have a place that is more private to do so. You will find it here - www.facebook.com/groups/547367528782336/ - if you are interested in taking parts of this journey yourself. I will set up daily challenges or exercises there that are based on what I do daily myself. This is in response to a request for this yesterday.. thank you for the challenge!!
This morning I managed to do my longer meditation first thing in the morning - I think I will try this daily as it is a good time to do it. Set my alarm for 15 minutes and was surprised when it went off - so that was actually a lot easier than I thought. It does give me a sense of presence to start my day with.
I then took a long walk - easy enough to do as my daughter takes the bus into town for her ballet school - so I walk with her to the bus stop and then keep on walking. Most days beloved hubby also joins in - he stops part way to do the gym (yes - we are very blessed and have an open air one in the park) - and I walk... gym and I do not get on all that well. In summer - I swim... I love to swim - so for exercise - I think I am doing quite well, as I have been doing this for most of the year, at least 5 times a week.
I do find it helps me see what rubbish is going on in my head... some days there is just utter garbage spewing forth and I find myself looking at it and thinking - really??? Is this what you want to create in your life? Then I consciously make an effort to focus on something more pleasant - on all the thing that are beautiful or going right in my life... I just start to tell myself another story. I am not saying this is easy to do. I have been practicing this for years and there is still garbage in my head! But - with practice I have become a lot better at stopping it in its tracks and not letting it get carried away, and then turning it around into a more positive outlook. I also make a point of really looking at where I am in my walk - at appreciation for where I live, for the flowers, the birds, and breathing in the essence of nature... this is really energizing and helps a lot. Its a good way to start the day.
So today - after a good start...I had an upset. Something happened and I got really upset about it. I fell into an old wound and it was nasty in there. We all carry these old things with us - until we find them and can transform them or let them go. So what to do when we fall into an old nasty or have a huge upset???
I created a safe space - I waited until there was no one around so I could go into my mess. Its not going anywhere until we do something about it. Now- who did what and why and when... those are details and t triggers... and not as important really as dealing with that messy pain - because until its dealt with - it will fester and infect our thinking and ability to create a better life.
So - step one - create a safe space to work in.... now I like comfort... so warm room and soft pillow... I also have Life Alignment tools - so I set up cards on a chart or a circle or pattern to hold me and support me while I drop in.
Step two - If you have some good friends - send them a message to send you loving support... it helps... they don't have to fix you or know all the details - although a good chat with one of them can really help if needed... they just need to send the support. If you don't have this option available... call in your guardian Angels, Guides, God - whatever Spiritual help you can call on - ancestors or pets... whatever works for you... We are never alone!!!!!!!
Step three - access your area of pain and drop into it - just acknowledge - this is it and this is how I am feeling... for me - its was deep tears... I did not try and think it through - emotions are feelings - you have to feel those suckers... you can't think them away. So I howled for a while, made a lot of snotty mess and noise for a while (pillows help if you worry about sound)... and I just let it all come out - no thinking - no figuring it out - just letting it all go.
I got up - had a cup of tea - got on with my day - and then later had a round two to do - no worries - same process - let the rest out.... and you may have a round 3 too - who is counting?? It does not matter - if it shows up - find a time for it and let it out when its ok to do so.
After that - the emotions are out of the way and the head can come back online. The head with emotions in the way - swimming all over - is working through the filters of old stories and can't see clearly.
I am always delighted with the clarity that comes to me after this - and the huge sense of relief and peace.
My breathing changes and I am so present... I... as in my Higher Self or Soul... label it what you want - but that larger me is there. This me can then take right action.
I later did my daily balance... this is part of taking me on a client... and this was all about connecting to the future me... the one who has already done the things I am setting out to do. So visualise a you who has already arrived where you want to go... what does this you feel like? Looks like? Get a real sense of this you. Adrian - my husband - has a great name for this - he calls it your Future Potential Self. This me has done it - this me knows what to do and how she did it. So this gives me the feeling I am aiming for, and this feeling can then become my guidance system for future actions. The more I visit this energy... the more I know how I need to feel. So when faced with a decision or action - I sense into it and feel it ... does it match this future me? Does it lead to this future me? If yes - then I follow through... if no - then I don't. Then I know I need to do something differently, and I track what that is and apply it. (OK sometimes... my dear ego gets in the way and draws this process out a bit... got to love this side of me too...looks a bit like a snively old shrew).
So this needs to become my focus. With the idea of focus - is also to focus on all the things that are right in my life, and are working out....all I have to be grateful for... more focus in this direction will bring more of this to me. What I focus on I create... it becomes like a magnetic force and draws more of this to me.
So tonight before going to bed - I will relax in a bath and just acknowledge all the good that is already in my life, and feel the gratitude for this... Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!!!