I woke up this morning and was not feeling that well - the room was spinning a bit and I was feeling very tired. I did my meditation and centered myself and did not push myself to walk as far as I usually do - just did a short walk - and then took care of myself. Asked my body what it needed - strong black dandelion tea and a simple slice of toast. I did this all day - just kept on checking in and giving myself what I needed when I needed it.
Oddly enough - I was still able to do quite a bit of work and start working on the webinar.
Since I stated this self coaching journey for change - I have asked myself to just keep on taking daily steps.
This has been building up to this webinar thing. I took the plunge a few days ago by putting a post on Facebook asking for people to offer to volunteer to be part of a test group. Phew - ok - step one done. That was enough for one day - especially as over 45 people put their hands up - that is a lot! Many want to know how to do this themselves... ok - so I have a choice there- I can give into the fear and freak out - or I can just take it one step at a time.
I found myself taking lots of deep breaths - doing one step - and then backing off and going to do something else. Then taking more deep breaths and taking another step - and then walking away.
I am no techno whizz... I have a small notepad thingy - you know - the smaller than an ipad thingy - sitting in my desk drawer... got it for free through my car insurance... and I have no idea what I am supposed to do with it. I put things on it and I tried it out about 3 times..and then put it back in the drawer... too hard basket.
So - if that freaks me out - running a webinar, making my own website and writing a blog - that's nightmare stuff!!!!
Now - do you understand why the room was spinning this morning and I have been feeling like I have been whipping around a roller coaster??
This stuff scares me!!!!!
I am lost. I have no clue... I just have this idea and this desire to make a change.
The choice here is to give into the fear - or to move past it and invoke the courage it takes to keep on taking those next steps!!
So - I am daily invoking that beautiful Divine and loving Cosmic energy (call it by whatever name works for you). I am starting my day by connecting to that energy stream and pulling it into my body. Then - many times in the day - when I talk about taking those deep breaths - I am again breathing in that Cosmic supportive Divine energy... and connecting to that aspect of me who can already do this.
My beloved Hubby - Adrian Hanks - has a great name for this aspect of ourselves - he calls it "The Future potential Self". So imagine going forward in time and there you are - a greater version of you - the you who can already do all of these things - who is a whizz at webinars, for example. Tap into that self - imagine going into that self and feeling what it feels like in there..breathing it in... and then letting that self take over and coach you in what to do. On that energy stream - this has already been done - and done well - therefor - it exists and therefor - you can do it - and you have done it. So I keep on tapping into the "me who can". I let my future guide me into taking the next step.
So - keep it simple - just do it one step at a time.
Invoke the Cosmic Divine Energy stream - this is instant courage and support.
Invoke your future positional self - the me who can and has already done it.
Take the next step.
Breathe - relax - reward yourself... and then do it all again when you are ready... one step at a time.
So back to that webinar - today - I did not one - but two test calls. My lovely hubby already uses the platform zoom - so decided to use that one - as I have help on hand. So he did a call with me and could come into my office and show me what to do. Then my lovely friend Marianne from Norway was on hand - so we did another test call. Tomorrow -I go one step further and I will run a session with some clients using it. Then Thursday - I will run a small group balance on it with just a few more people... and then.. I will set another time - that works better for more people... step by step - and the future will reveal itself.
Oddly enough - I am feeling so much better tonight - had a nana nap on the vortex mat after lunch... and then ran those two test calls... ahhhh...breathing again... see - it wasn't that bad!