Hello there - while this is my 17th blog post - it is the 30th day of this challenge I set for myself.
I have just been away in Melbourne - taught a great workshop which was very deep. I came back feeling high - but also very tired - so went to bed very early last night and slept in this morning.
I am feeling tired today... so I started my day with a relaxing bath.
This is one of those days where it would be so easy to just allow myself to let go and not do much more... and sometimes that is the right thing to do...but today - its not... Today I need to keep on going. I need to get back into my routine and give myself the right things that will bring my energy levels back up.
I know that eating fresh fruit and raw food is good for me - but honestly - I don't feel like doing that..however - its the right things for me today - so - I am doing it - despite my ego wanting to reach for the quick and easy fix.
My ego really wants to be lazy... I did give myself good rest time and I did lie in a bath, relax and read - but to continue is not the right thing. I know there are things I need to do today - and doing them will make me feel good... so I am sorry dear ego - its not a total laze out today - its a compromise.
There are things that will make me feel good, and that I need to do to lift my field.... ahhh - but can you see how I am having to talk myself into doing them? Yes - it takes that extra reach - that decision to choose the things that best serve me, and then to reach for them - to strive for them - against my other self wanting to give in and just sleep and read and eat junk. Its the eat junk thing that gives it all away as being the lazy cop out!!! Sleep yes - I have listened to my bodies need for that and I have given it what it needs. Relax - yes - I have given that to myself as well... but cop out - no.... there is this part that does want to cop out - that wants to reason with me and say -"well you have done so much and just come back from teaching - and and and".... and its actually wanting to avoid taking the next step. It has fear... its actually afraid of the growth that is happening and the changes. It does not want to take those next steps yet - as its all feeling too much too fast and too big.... let me rather stay back in the discomfort I know...hahah... there is it.. the fear that the ego holds of growth.
So - with much love and compassion for that side of myself - I reach out and in - to the me who can stand up and who can take the right actions... my Higher Self... and this self lovingly makes me herbal teas, and leads me to the ginger which always gives me an energy boost... who gives me the time out I need and also knows when its time to get up and get moving - as when I move I feel good. This same self got me jogging on the spot while running my bath and touching my toes and doing some exercises... and yes - I do feel much better for it. Its this same me that is making me sit here and write the next blog.. saying -" keep on going - you can do it.... just keep on taking the next step - just one more step today - come on - you are doing so well - just take another step today and then you can rest and relax again.. and reward yourself - you have it in you - yes - you can!!"
This lovely self takes my hand away from the quick fix junk and reaches instead for the quick fix and easy to eat fruit... see - its still fast and easy - just better for you dear one.
This voice - is the voice of loving compassion - leading me forwards to be a better me every day.... this is the one to listen to.... and so I will.
let your voice lead you today - even if just for an hour - listen to that other you today and see what steps you can keep taking to take you to a better you.